mothers and daughters....

facebook is a wonderful place to reconnect with friends of the past. this is what has happened with a girl i knew when i was in high school. we recently reconnected about a month ago and have been trying to plan time to hang out. our plans were put aside because of some news i received yesterday. this woman, who is only 30 years old, lost her mother who had just turned 50 in november. it's amazing the enormous amount of pain you can feel for someone you haven't even seen in over 12 years. i have cried and thought of how awful she must be feeling right now. i have also been thinking of her 3 children she has. her oldest was especially close to her mammy. this of course made me think of my pud and his mam maw. they are closer than two people could ever be! sometimes i get so jealous but then i think of the bond that my grandma and i shared. no one could touch that! i was the worst day of my life when i lost her. i replay it every year on the anniversary of her funeral. how could i forget it? they buried her the first day of my senior year. what a way to start that.

the one thing i really remember was at the viewing were all of my friends came to show their love and support. what was interesting were the number of people that i was not close to. people are interesting when something horrible happens. it's like everything that has ever happened is pushed aside and they are just there for you. that was a blessing.

i wanted to let my mom and pud's mam maw know that i love her very much and am not ready to say good bye. remember you are not allowed to leave this earth until i say so....and im not saying nuttin!!

i have attached the website for the blog my friend placed. it describes what happened and how odd december 1, 2008 was for her.

god bless to everyone....please hug your family and friends a little tighter tonight....

http://morellichaos.blogspot.com/2008/12/long-monday.html

lots of hugs my friend....